Wednesday, June 16, 2010
No sadness and with those words the dancing image of my mom left my dreams early this morning. I have been missing her a lot lately. Really missing her, the sound of her voice, her ability to just listen to me without offering advice at every other word. I want to tell her that I continue to be hurt by a friend, that Jacob is growing tall and smart, that I am making new things everyday. What I wouldn't give to - just even for a brief, brief moment - hear her voice again, see her face, touch her hands. It did not come as a surprise to me, at the end of this vivid dream that she would leave me with a short message to comfort me; no sadness. She has no sadness and I shouldn't either.
I will take it to heart, holding the thought,the words of parting wisdom close to my breast but I will still miss her; more than I ever thought possible.